...learn to be the servant of all...
On a personal note, my marriage has an albatross in it and each time the monster raises its head I want to do anything but serve. I want to fight and have my way. I want my side heard and understood and I want my husband to agree with me, kick back and do it my way. I don't want to serve when I feel it is wrongly deserved and completely unjust. My husband doesn't see my point of view or agree with my opinion and is asking me to step up to the plate anyway. I find it next to impossible. I am fighting against myself to put myself last...but Christ has so plainly told me to do so. So after this awful fight tonight..I will relent to the albatross and put myself last. I will shut my mouth. I just wish I was doing this with a better heart...but I am doing it for Christ.
I can be an ugly person. The person I don't think I am can, and does, show up and remind me of my complete and total need for Christ and His forgiveness and direction. My actions today are a reminder to me how completely impossible it is to find favor with God apart from Christ. I was told tonight not to continue my blog, that I am not a good enough Christian to do this blog - but that's the point. I am not a good enough Christian so I need to go to the Word and I need Him. I don't claim to be anything but a sinner saved by grace.
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I completely agree with you that because we as sinners need to do what we can to come closer to God, to understand His will for us. And if in the process of doing this you can encourage others, that is even better. This blog of yours, I would imagine, helps you to focus your thoughts and search the scripture for answers. And I personally feel encouraged and look forward to reading them. We are all ugly people, and all sin, and you aren't going to get things right in your blogs each day (but you seem to get it much better than I do). I believe that because you did see a problem in your life, and strived to change your reaction to the situation shows that you have become more aware of what God is saying to you and understanding how to put that into practice. Thank you for your encouragement, and I want to encourage you as well.
ReplyDeleteHope your knee is healing quickly. There's snow on Mt Hamilton!
Thank-you, Louis, for your encouragement. I needed that. I did three blogs last night on paper (I don't have a laptop currently until Dale gets home from work and it is hard to sit at this computer)so I will enter them, hopefully, tonight along with any new ones I do today. I have my first post-op in Los Gatos at 2:30.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the reminder that we all need Christ. As I read your post I am reminded that the hardest thing for me to do is to serve when I don't want to. God's command is to serve with love not serve when we feel good.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the reminder that being a servant is not part of our nature. God is working in our lives to make us more like Him all we have to do is let Him.
ReplyDeleteThank-you, Teresa, for your honesty...and it very real and very hard, isn't it. Praise God we have him for 2nd, 3rd, 4th to infinity chances.
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